...unhappy that I get to write so little and generally in retrospect lately, yet happy that means other engines of my life are eating up all my energy, as you might expect. I was wondering loudly this morning, that is as loud as my brain can speak to itself after not enough hours of sleep, what has happened to my blogging, what has changed in my life that makes it harder to work, live, AND blog at the same time. And then I realised that I live more now, at home or wherever. And that I work more now, as I've got wider responsibilities, from making sure that we take good care of two employees to ordering stationary to learning a plethora of lessons and skills. And that, in a twisted way, I blog more when I do, partly as a result of the previous two activities. And then, to top everything, I sleep more, even though still not enough, and I take make sure that a household of two very demanding human beings ticks along smoothly.
I believe I thought about these first on a Monday, started writing on a Wednesday, and finally got around to posting on a Saturday. Less is more, less is more, less is more. This could be my mantra about a million little things, except my larger-than-life manner and perfectionist nature get in the way. And the main area that suffers is my blog, the main, if little writing I do at all. I want to internalise less-is-more, and as any new habit takes 21 consecutive days, I'll dedicate the best part of August to applying less-is-more on my blog. This way, perhaps, I will behave and perceive myself happier overall, and lose that tinge of anger that derails my train of thoughts at bedtime. As well, I'll postpone new projects some more, until I get a better hold of those already in progress. I know
someone else will be happier, too, not hearing again and again that I simply must do this and the other (last must was
make a piece of jewellery a month).
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